Today marks seven and a half months since I left Houston, Texas. The first time I had a breath of Asia. With the opening of spring, I’m reminded the beauty that comes after winter – my first time seeing flowers blossoming in China. I see what looks like clouds falling from the lively green trees. I’m listening to the birds peacefully chirping, and I’m reminded that I haven’t felt bored in months. Tired, maybe, but never bored. I’m calm, relaxed, in control and in the present.
I’m not bored anymore because I finally know my value. I know what I’m capable of. Although my purpose (if that’s even something to ever worry about) has not been fully outlined, I don’t mind. I have a pep in my step and am ready to study in class. That’s where I was putting my energy when I reminded my to blog, and I knew that every step forward was one instance toward my life being fully painted. A painting that I can be proud of once it’s finished.
My perspective on life has completely transformed because now I’m content knowing, knowing I have a responsibility to always be a better version of myself, and everything I do contributes to that goal.
Asia is one part of my history towards a future where I plan to evolve into not only creating that masterpiece of a painting, my life, but where I can reflect on how taking a gap year has helped me understand myself and others towards a path where I’m constantly changing the world.
I see a world where my conscious is fully open along with others so we can all be as content as I have in just a walk to class.
My time in Asia has influenced my perspective and goals because in America I was only conscious of a part of myself, while in Asia there is a collective effort for society to be better. Ideas like this, along with a passion to read and write more, have opened up new experiences and opportunities to wonder, “How am I improving?”
Continuing towards this path of a wider conscious will continue gifting me with more experiences, further peace, and even more opportunities to grow. I have faith that since I was able to change me, others will have this same path towards me if I keep nudging myself forward along with others on similar paths.
Education, personal develpment, and cultural understanding were never properly taught to me. I do not envision a world with me in it and so many others to die without as much conscious as they can muster; It is the upmost importance to me to achieve an “ultimate” version of me that has drastically changed from constant self-love and will help remove this failure of misunderstanding.
At least two people to have changed is enough for this goal of mine – then, exponential growth.
Like Bob Ross, I hope my canvas leads through a journey, one where compassion, understanding and self-love are every day ideals. Asia has been my catalyst for success and I know this chapter has only begun. I’m excited to see how every second goes.